"That which does not kill me makes me cuter." - tele Nietzsche
Monday, June 30, 2003
My Inner Age
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stole this quiz from noshuu's blog heheheheeeeee....
woooooowhhheeeett! if u see this..... im younger than u! noshuuuuuuuuu..... yaaahahahahaaaaa!!!! x(^-^)v
but.... i don have an imaginary bestest fren wor.... ( >x< )?
my Raziel disappeared.... ( 'x' )?
nebermine.... I put me here then v(^-^)x
nebermine.... I put me here then v(^-^)x
Thursday, June 26, 2003
Yeap, that's it. DeathopiA has disbanded. It's been great jamming with u guys. It's been great having the rest of u attend our jamming sessions, whether they've been bad or good. Thank you for supporting us in our gigs. We'll go our separate ways now.
It's a good thing too - having me around would only drag the band down - I've got no flair for producing originals nor the interest to go serious, merely to jam and sing cover songs for the sake of pure fun and enjoyment. Emer has his reasons, Kein has his. Very sorry to Bish that I'm unable to stand by ur objections because I feel that our disbandment is truly necessary, so that I do not hold back ur serious attitudes to music. Apart from Bish who is relatively new to the band compared to us, we've been together for over 1 1/2 years. No doubt DeathopiA will surely have sentimental value to me and I'll miss our times when we jammed together, whether the sessions had been good or lousy.
But feelings are feelings, so although I'll somewhat miss this band and our great bandname, the right and sensible thing to do still is that I do not remain with you guys. Just saying, if DeathopiA still remains as a band without me, I'll still accept it all the same and believe that a more serious vocalist should take my place. Me... I'll just go about looking for simple non-serious people to jam with if I could.
Disbandment will never be a unified process, otherwise it wouldn't be called a disbandment anyway. But still, sorry to disappoint you Bish. May all of our friendships not be affected by this thing. Band is band, friendship is friendship, other aspects are other aspects, so on and so forth.
So now, I'll wish you all the best in your future endeavours. To Emerson, Kein, Bish, Dani, Alfe... Good luck to all of you in your future music involvements and all else that you do.
And a big big thanks to all you friends for your critiques, views and support all this while ^^
DeathopiA shall always be remembered in all the photographs and that dreaded Club Oosh performance VCD recording, haha --"
It's a good thing too - having me around would only drag the band down - I've got no flair for producing originals nor the interest to go serious, merely to jam and sing cover songs for the sake of pure fun and enjoyment. Emer has his reasons, Kein has his. Very sorry to Bish that I'm unable to stand by ur objections because I feel that our disbandment is truly necessary, so that I do not hold back ur serious attitudes to music. Apart from Bish who is relatively new to the band compared to us, we've been together for over 1 1/2 years. No doubt DeathopiA will surely have sentimental value to me and I'll miss our times when we jammed together, whether the sessions had been good or lousy.
But feelings are feelings, so although I'll somewhat miss this band and our great bandname, the right and sensible thing to do still is that I do not remain with you guys. Just saying, if DeathopiA still remains as a band without me, I'll still accept it all the same and believe that a more serious vocalist should take my place. Me... I'll just go about looking for simple non-serious people to jam with if I could.
Disbandment will never be a unified process, otherwise it wouldn't be called a disbandment anyway. But still, sorry to disappoint you Bish. May all of our friendships not be affected by this thing. Band is band, friendship is friendship, other aspects are other aspects, so on and so forth.
So now, I'll wish you all the best in your future endeavours. To Emerson, Kein, Bish, Dani, Alfe... Good luck to all of you in your future music involvements and all else that you do.
And a big big thanks to all you friends for your critiques, views and support all this while ^^
DeathopiA shall always be remembered in all the photographs and that dreaded Club Oosh performance VCD recording, haha --"
Friday, June 20, 2003
ahhhhh I dont care! Im putting this link here! Its my band, and my pic there! Thats how the real Lord tabe should look! WUAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!
http://tomshen.clubsnap.org/gallery/theme_ssf2003_101_105.htm
http://tomshen.clubsnap.org/gallery/theme_ssf2003_101_105.htm
Monday, June 16, 2003
Ahh June 14 J-rock gig... i'm sure the rest of the band would agree this was he best performance above all the past ones that we've had. Sound was good, we conducted ourselves in a naturally light and friendly manner, as opposed to popular badass rocky n serious attitudes - i suppose that's beyond me... if i did that, i think most of u would have burst out laughing... our supposed serious + rock attitude seemed to be pulled off rather okay during June 8 2002... it fell rockbottom during Oosh Club Dec 23 2002. Maybe a change was needed, this time... no more visuals + minimise attempts to act "stylo-milo" and just be normal... hehehehe... it has worked to a considerable extent, i find.
Now for my part, i think i zao-xia only one time, a minor one during Nightmare's Esoragoto. For that song, i also tried to pull in every bit of Gackt's influence that I had or remembered just for fun, hhahahahohohoho... im glad enough there are a few of u kids who manage to detect that, bahahahaahaa....
On gabra-ing my lyrics and singing wrongly... our last song, Rosier, topped them all... the end part ("Rosier aishita kiminiwa......") was especially mixed up. Usually, I would have sung it without much problem... So i gotta really apologise for cocking that up. The ending of it is so easy.... ahhhhhhhhh.... wei she me!?!?!? >____<""" Aiyah, can't expect everything to be perfect, moreover, it was a small price to pay for such a big success in our own rights.
On entertainment and stage antics, if u will, I didn't plan that Twisties thing. But it was mine, not Kuek's. Just when we were about to start performing, I asked Kuek n Zhiwei to help me hold the packet just so I could run over and reach for some. I needed that to hoarsen my throat a little so that i could shout. Professionals surely disagree to this nonsense, but me's just a smalltime KTV-standard kiddie. So its a small but unexpected thumbs up for us bah for those of u who saw it and found that funny, hahaha.
As a result.... Iron Maiden Fear Of The Dark had no glitches thanks to the Twisties! HEAHHEHEHAHAHAAA It was good, but Kein said he screwed up the solo part... hmmm... I admit im somewhat guitar deaf, so i failed to make that out. But anyway, normally he could handle that part without problem. O well, shit happens, cant expect everything to be perfect, just like my Rosier's ending.. horhorhor.
Now I'll tell u what I did plan... hehahahehehehahaa... I did plan "NOT" to introduce Alfe. HAHAHAHA....
"Our drummer is just a friend who's playing for us and who declines not to be introduced.... So... I shall respect his wishes and not introduce him.... Right Alfe?"
HWAAAAHWAAAHWAAAHWAAAAAA
"Yeah correct, Alfe says he still doesn't wanna be introduced, so we'll now proceed to the next song......." It's great to see u fine audience laughing.
Okay, what else did i plan? O well, it wasn't really planned. I figured i couldn't sing Nightmare - Esoragoto in the way Yumi did, and that i didn't have my own style... So Gackt was the next target. Yaahaahahaa... So okay lor... for the past 2 jamming sessions, I just imagined or thought of Gackt when I sang that... expression, movement and voice... I Loves His Voice v( ^o^ )v
So, great... im glad some of u kids managed to discover that.
"I shall now take the opportunity to thank all the organisers and supporters of this Street Festival and especially the efforts of Annie Pek without whom this whole thing we see here today, all this while, wouldnt have been that possible."
"Last but not least......... [silence]............. [waiting]............."
"Hoi Alfe, Where's the DRUM ROLL?? Hoiiiiiii~~~"
"Ahaha nevermind that... Last but not least, thank you all of u here for coming to support."
Maybe being too serious in everything drowns out the potential for entertainment and fun, not that other bands have to follow our way of course muahahahaa... The past two gigs on June 8 2002 and the nightmarish Oosh Club experience 23 Dec 2002, hmmmm.. June 8 one we were serious but it was quite okay... Oosh Club.... wuahhhhhhhhh.... bu yaooo ahhhhhhhh....... too serious then .. plus too tired n too sian n too late n wrong attitudes...... etc etc
So here we have it, kids, we had been more entertaining, natural, funny and not at all professional this time round(^-^)v. U're here to have a good time, so we hope we have delivered. Damn that stupid Emer for shouting out my real name... Ghaarrgghhh!!! >:|
After the gig, and after supporting Ivan/Jon's band Kurotenshi and Defuse, singing along with them... my throat's gotten a bit sore.
And now that's, the gig's over, I like to take a break... how? hahahaha.... by auditioning for the simpler smalltime Diamond Dust KTV competition. Sunday, yesterday, i woke up with a somewhat sore throat, but not too bad still... and I didn't wanna miss this opportunity as well. So I met up with Ivan and Luna first. We collected cobwebs and tons of dust waiting for Jojo. In the end, the 3 of us went up to audition first. I did Glay - Survival, something i've been waiting to perform for a very very long time. I cant remember the LS song Ivan sang. Jojo, when he arrived later, sang Siam Shade's 1/3 ???... We met Iris in the evening after she too had done her audition (Utada Hikaru First Love). Just for auditioning alone, each of us got a free one hour extension at Diamond Dust, expiry date is 2 mths time. Unfortunately, we can't use them together, so its pay one hour free one hour. We'll await our results of getting into the Finals by next weekend.
And today Monday, after all those singing and supporting...... I woke up with a bloody true blue sore throat p(>O<)q"""
Now for my part, i think i zao-xia only one time, a minor one during Nightmare's Esoragoto. For that song, i also tried to pull in every bit of Gackt's influence that I had or remembered just for fun, hhahahahohohoho... im glad enough there are a few of u kids who manage to detect that, bahahahaahaa....
On gabra-ing my lyrics and singing wrongly... our last song, Rosier, topped them all... the end part ("Rosier aishita kiminiwa......") was especially mixed up. Usually, I would have sung it without much problem... So i gotta really apologise for cocking that up. The ending of it is so easy.... ahhhhhhhhh.... wei she me!?!?!? >____<""" Aiyah, can't expect everything to be perfect, moreover, it was a small price to pay for such a big success in our own rights.
On entertainment and stage antics, if u will, I didn't plan that Twisties thing. But it was mine, not Kuek's. Just when we were about to start performing, I asked Kuek n Zhiwei to help me hold the packet just so I could run over and reach for some. I needed that to hoarsen my throat a little so that i could shout. Professionals surely disagree to this nonsense, but me's just a smalltime KTV-standard kiddie. So its a small but unexpected thumbs up for us bah for those of u who saw it and found that funny, hahaha.
As a result.... Iron Maiden Fear Of The Dark had no glitches thanks to the Twisties! HEAHHEHEHAHAHAAA It was good, but Kein said he screwed up the solo part... hmmm... I admit im somewhat guitar deaf, so i failed to make that out. But anyway, normally he could handle that part without problem. O well, shit happens, cant expect everything to be perfect, just like my Rosier's ending.. horhorhor.
Now I'll tell u what I did plan... hehahahehehehahaa... I did plan "NOT" to introduce Alfe. HAHAHAHA....
"Our drummer is just a friend who's playing for us and who declines not to be introduced.... So... I shall respect his wishes and not introduce him.... Right Alfe?"
HWAAAAHWAAAHWAAAHWAAAAAA
"Yeah correct, Alfe says he still doesn't wanna be introduced, so we'll now proceed to the next song......." It's great to see u fine audience laughing.
Okay, what else did i plan? O well, it wasn't really planned. I figured i couldn't sing Nightmare - Esoragoto in the way Yumi did, and that i didn't have my own style... So Gackt was the next target. Yaahaahahaa... So okay lor... for the past 2 jamming sessions, I just imagined or thought of Gackt when I sang that... expression, movement and voice... I Loves His Voice v( ^o^ )v
So, great... im glad some of u kids managed to discover that.
"I shall now take the opportunity to thank all the organisers and supporters of this Street Festival and especially the efforts of Annie Pek without whom this whole thing we see here today, all this while, wouldnt have been that possible."
"Last but not least......... [silence]............. [waiting]............."
"Hoi Alfe, Where's the DRUM ROLL?? Hoiiiiiii~~~"
"Ahaha nevermind that... Last but not least, thank you all of u here for coming to support."
Maybe being too serious in everything drowns out the potential for entertainment and fun, not that other bands have to follow our way of course muahahahaa... The past two gigs on June 8 2002 and the nightmarish Oosh Club experience 23 Dec 2002, hmmmm.. June 8 one we were serious but it was quite okay... Oosh Club.... wuahhhhhhhhh.... bu yaooo ahhhhhhhh....... too serious then .. plus too tired n too sian n too late n wrong attitudes...... etc etc
So here we have it, kids, we had been more entertaining, natural, funny and not at all professional this time round(^-^)v. U're here to have a good time, so we hope we have delivered. Damn that stupid Emer for shouting out my real name... Ghaarrgghhh!!! >:|
After the gig, and after supporting Ivan/Jon's band Kurotenshi and Defuse, singing along with them... my throat's gotten a bit sore.
And now that's, the gig's over, I like to take a break... how? hahahaha.... by auditioning for the simpler smalltime Diamond Dust KTV competition. Sunday, yesterday, i woke up with a somewhat sore throat, but not too bad still... and I didn't wanna miss this opportunity as well. So I met up with Ivan and Luna first. We collected cobwebs and tons of dust waiting for Jojo. In the end, the 3 of us went up to audition first. I did Glay - Survival, something i've been waiting to perform for a very very long time. I cant remember the LS song Ivan sang. Jojo, when he arrived later, sang Siam Shade's 1/3 ???... We met Iris in the evening after she too had done her audition (Utada Hikaru First Love). Just for auditioning alone, each of us got a free one hour extension at Diamond Dust, expiry date is 2 mths time. Unfortunately, we can't use them together, so its pay one hour free one hour. We'll await our results of getting into the Finals by next weekend.
And today Monday, after all those singing and supporting...... I woke up with a bloody true blue sore throat p(>O<)q"""
Friday, June 13, 2003
With permission from the friend involved in the below story here, and for the purpose of making certain points n delivering certain messages u shall discover below, I shall post this extremely lenghty story here in my blog.
11 JUNE WED
We are all victims of irresponsible finger-pointing, both as the pointer and as the pointed. Even myself had been an unwary victim of passing inaccurate and biased judgement abt ppl. So often are we so myopic and narrow-minded that we see things within the confines of our own definitions and fail to consider the elements outside. This i refer to a problem which im pretty deeply involved in, although it isnt mine.
I would not mention names here.
If u think u know who these ppl are, then u do. If u dont, u dont.
I know both GUY n GIRL.
GUY had SEEMINGLY cheated behind GIRL's back.
There are many reasons, many implications and consequences I had to bear in mind...
1.
Say, for example, i heard of this piece of news on january 16. Do u think i have the heart to tell it to GIRL on January 16 itself when GIRL is still happily talking nonsense on the IRC? Man, i would feel horribly guilty to suddenly bring her world crashing down unaware. While i believed doing that would be rash, I also admit I hadn't the courage.
2.
WHAT IF.... in 1 year's time or two.. GUY n GIRL are happily together and that, no matter how minute n bleak the POSSIBILITY is that GUY would become the kind of nice caring sincere boyfriend, and GIRL, a truly deeply loving girlfriend, might be sharing a truly joyous n wonderful r/ship?
Would u therefore be guilty urself of making a rash decision to reveal this information to GIRL at this point in time and potentially ruining a possible happy future for them?
3.
Myself n GUY2, who knew of this info, did not tell also because we are from the same band as GUY. There are implications to this... By right the thing to do is that we should not mix band or friendship relations together with a band member's private love life... So if we were to reveal this thing to GIRL ourselves, we may run the risk of entangling this matter with band politics and therefore such is unhealthy for band relations.
On the outside looking in, such is a truly cowardly decision, i will agree to that. But if ur in a band and such things happen, would u urself naturally not have this concern as well?
Instead of telling her straight, GUY2 tried to show a little concern by asking if her r/ship was going well.
4.
I was the one mainly responsible in helping them get together, not that it really mattered much if I didn't do it. Even without my help, they would have got together quick enough as well. Let's just say i was a catalyst. In any case, I felt responsible for their get-together and so I would also feel irresponsible if i were to simply deliver a simple and highly damaging statement and ruin their r/ship... "Hey, GIRL, GUY seems to be chasing GIRL2 n GIRL3 behind ur back leh. Wat u gonna do ah?"
Instead... I felt it better to go the longer way...
For the past 2 weeks or so, GIRL had been feeling some neglect from GUY, to the extent that she couldn't bear the pain anymore and so we came to talk abt her problem. My first suspicions were such so-called "cheating" matters, but I dared not confirm it. I had advised her to stay strong and to try out all possible methods to solicit at least some positive response from GUY.
I asked her to emulate what we believed was his "cold" behaviour and stop being responsive to GUY - it didn't work.
Next, I asked her to try out the soft method of being a little nicer and a bit more affectionate, so hoping that he would respond in kind - it didn't work.
She was already beginning to breakdown, but there were still other options. I asked her to be direct with GUY and find out why he was behaving the way he did lately - it didn't work.
We have tried a number of methods - it may seem here there are only 3 methods - but know that each method takes time and a great deal of patience to perform.
Fourth try, I asked her to wait till the coming Saturday cosplay cum gig was over. It may just be due to stress. She couldn't wait anymore, too hurt and insisted on a breakup. She wanted me to tell him that. But without doing everything possible or understanding what's going on, that cannot happen. I called GUY up and spoke with him instead, revealing what we have tried, what we have spoke about, revealing her pains all this while. I found GUY's views and perceptions interesting - even now i'm unable to completely understand him.
Different ppl really have very different characters.
In short, GUY really just says things directly as he feels it, no two ways about it.
Here's just an simple IRC example...
GUY: "how are u now?"
GIRL: "so far so good." [followed by silence]
Here, GUY really believes that things are so far so good according to GIRL's actual words. This means he takes those words to be the truth and does not bother to question more.
For many of us, we may regard this as being insensitive and therefore wrong, but we must recognise that, logically, GUY is still correct.
Here's another instance...
GIRL asks GUY for some assurance.
GUY: "What's there to assure?"
We would think that's a very insensitive statement. It is.
But GUY really believes there is no problem, hence he does not see what need there is to assure GIRL. Logically, that question is sound.
But more than usual, the realms of logic and emotion often clash.
If GUY's response was interpreted in the "emotional" way GIRL and I did, we would naturally have got pissed, we may even have thought that response was sarcastic.
But not GUY... GUY meant wat he said - he didn't know how or what he actually had to do to make her more assured... no two ways about it.
There were many more other instances, many more things. I apologise if im still unable to help u to understand the above two small examples and paint a clearer picture.
How we interpret such things defines what our own characters are.
GIRL is very emotional so she uses her feelings to interpret GUY's responses and therefore got very hurt.
GUY was making a fully sound statement, logically they are correct.
Initially, before speaking to GUY, I also believed those were hurtful insensitive words... and this was because, like GIRL, I too used my heart and not my mind to make out their meanings.
But it became very different altogether afterwards, I find GUY very direct in the way he had been communicating with GIRL. And, consequently, I helped her to understand him better as well.
I was glad n hopeful that their r/ship was going to mend again, and that greater communication and understanding between them would prevail, thus paving way for a much better r/ship in time to come.
Yet, things had an untimely way of taking place. Just the next day, when things were beginning to bode well. GIRL was told that GUY had been "doing things behind her back". She also found out that I knew it all the while. When she called me up abt it, I did not know what to say really - the cat just caught my tongue. GUY2 too was shocked. But later on I tried to explain all of these that I've said to her, and she was able to accept it.
I also said that among those reasons, I had been COWARDLY and AFRAID to tell. On behalf of GUY2 and myself, I apologised to her for all the wrong aspects of our choice.
As well, in a moment of fluster to explain my actions, I had unintentionally spoken too harshly to one of the persons accompanying GIRL at that time of this breakdown. I had never believed in scolding a friend, only that I would be serious in making a point. I became too serious. Today we've mended up that misunderstanding, but Im sorry all the same.
5.
Many a times, there are things that can be really so difficult to decide that we end up sitting on the fence not knowing which side to go to. Its an exact 50-50. In a situation like this, I would be cheating my friend and helping another to "cheat" (notice the quotations!) my friend if I were to completely with-hold this information. If I were to reveal it, I had to bear the above consequences in mind, whether they affect myself or my friend's r/ship.
So confusing, but no matter what, I still had to make a choice.. not only did I chose not to tell, but I also said to others who knew that they shouldn't reveal. That was my choice.
6.
In the end it was somebody else who revealed this, for better or for worse.
13 JUNE FRI
WHAT IF..... contrary to the "evidence" we have gathered, GUY may still be true after all? That no matter how much we ourselves do not condone such "cheating" actions, there might be an acceptable reason behind GUY's doing? A reason however remote and impossible that we do not know of? A lot of things we simply see on the surface and soon after a judgement is passed. What if u happen to find out much more and discovered that ur judgement had somehow been unfair? Would u urself be able to retract that skewed judgement of urs and change? Ppl make mistakes, it is natural.
This here had been one of my remote thoughts that I had not taken the effort to look into, but so far, reality has taken a turn. Is it a fact? Or is it some more lies? We dont know...
Some ppl would have simply left and resumed their lives without pursuing such problems.
Some ppl would stay on to find out the full truth.
There is no right or wrong, except that those who stay on have great endurance and patience.
GUY had spoken to a friend, GIRL4, and GIRL has found out further from this friend that GUY is actually after all unable to know what he really wanted. Like GIRL described, "He is like a lost misguided sheep."
Those actions of cheating had been most wrong, but right n wrong are not absolute.
GIRL4 said that GUY told her he hadn't the intention to cheat behind GIRL's back.
GIRL has decided that GUY still deserves a chance and that she is willing to help him find his direction, whether or not there is a future for them. If it doesnt work out between them, GIRL would be glad to have helped him out as a friend.
Had we not knew of what GUY had spoken to GIRL4, things would have been so different. So many many of us, including myself, have fell victim to superficial finger-pointing. There is something deeper that we now see... and I believe and support GIRL's decisions - GUY still deserves another chance.
Furthermore, chance is not given only one time, two time or a few times... chance ought to be given as long we feel a person is still deserving of it. Of course, we have to put consideration into the past misgivings of that person, but we must also remember not to neglect any future possibilities and chance that that person might become better.
In the end, by choosing not to tell, I may have made a bad choice.
But for the person who revealed the truth, it had been valuable gift for GIRL's birthday.
Even if u THINK u may know everything, in the end, it's only what u THINK. U may not really know them all. Dont be so quick to judge.
After this, I havent passed my judgement yet nor do i think i want to.
Anyway, judging somebody, if u want to that is, need not be a one-time decision, but a timelong process in itself.
11 JUNE WED
We are all victims of irresponsible finger-pointing, both as the pointer and as the pointed. Even myself had been an unwary victim of passing inaccurate and biased judgement abt ppl. So often are we so myopic and narrow-minded that we see things within the confines of our own definitions and fail to consider the elements outside. This i refer to a problem which im pretty deeply involved in, although it isnt mine.
I would not mention names here.
If u think u know who these ppl are, then u do. If u dont, u dont.
I know both GUY n GIRL.
GUY had SEEMINGLY cheated behind GIRL's back.
There are many reasons, many implications and consequences I had to bear in mind...
1.
Say, for example, i heard of this piece of news on january 16. Do u think i have the heart to tell it to GIRL on January 16 itself when GIRL is still happily talking nonsense on the IRC? Man, i would feel horribly guilty to suddenly bring her world crashing down unaware. While i believed doing that would be rash, I also admit I hadn't the courage.
2.
WHAT IF.... in 1 year's time or two.. GUY n GIRL are happily together and that, no matter how minute n bleak the POSSIBILITY is that GUY would become the kind of nice caring sincere boyfriend, and GIRL, a truly deeply loving girlfriend, might be sharing a truly joyous n wonderful r/ship?
Would u therefore be guilty urself of making a rash decision to reveal this information to GIRL at this point in time and potentially ruining a possible happy future for them?
3.
Myself n GUY2, who knew of this info, did not tell also because we are from the same band as GUY. There are implications to this... By right the thing to do is that we should not mix band or friendship relations together with a band member's private love life... So if we were to reveal this thing to GIRL ourselves, we may run the risk of entangling this matter with band politics and therefore such is unhealthy for band relations.
On the outside looking in, such is a truly cowardly decision, i will agree to that. But if ur in a band and such things happen, would u urself naturally not have this concern as well?
Instead of telling her straight, GUY2 tried to show a little concern by asking if her r/ship was going well.
4.
I was the one mainly responsible in helping them get together, not that it really mattered much if I didn't do it. Even without my help, they would have got together quick enough as well. Let's just say i was a catalyst. In any case, I felt responsible for their get-together and so I would also feel irresponsible if i were to simply deliver a simple and highly damaging statement and ruin their r/ship... "Hey, GIRL, GUY seems to be chasing GIRL2 n GIRL3 behind ur back leh. Wat u gonna do ah?"
Instead... I felt it better to go the longer way...
For the past 2 weeks or so, GIRL had been feeling some neglect from GUY, to the extent that she couldn't bear the pain anymore and so we came to talk abt her problem. My first suspicions were such so-called "cheating" matters, but I dared not confirm it. I had advised her to stay strong and to try out all possible methods to solicit at least some positive response from GUY.
I asked her to emulate what we believed was his "cold" behaviour and stop being responsive to GUY - it didn't work.
Next, I asked her to try out the soft method of being a little nicer and a bit more affectionate, so hoping that he would respond in kind - it didn't work.
She was already beginning to breakdown, but there were still other options. I asked her to be direct with GUY and find out why he was behaving the way he did lately - it didn't work.
We have tried a number of methods - it may seem here there are only 3 methods - but know that each method takes time and a great deal of patience to perform.
Fourth try, I asked her to wait till the coming Saturday cosplay cum gig was over. It may just be due to stress. She couldn't wait anymore, too hurt and insisted on a breakup. She wanted me to tell him that. But without doing everything possible or understanding what's going on, that cannot happen. I called GUY up and spoke with him instead, revealing what we have tried, what we have spoke about, revealing her pains all this while. I found GUY's views and perceptions interesting - even now i'm unable to completely understand him.
Different ppl really have very different characters.
In short, GUY really just says things directly as he feels it, no two ways about it.
Here's just an simple IRC example...
GUY: "how are u now?"
GIRL: "so far so good." [followed by silence]
Here, GUY really believes that things are so far so good according to GIRL's actual words. This means he takes those words to be the truth and does not bother to question more.
For many of us, we may regard this as being insensitive and therefore wrong, but we must recognise that, logically, GUY is still correct.
Here's another instance...
GIRL asks GUY for some assurance.
GUY: "What's there to assure?"
We would think that's a very insensitive statement. It is.
But GUY really believes there is no problem, hence he does not see what need there is to assure GIRL. Logically, that question is sound.
But more than usual, the realms of logic and emotion often clash.
If GUY's response was interpreted in the "emotional" way GIRL and I did, we would naturally have got pissed, we may even have thought that response was sarcastic.
But not GUY... GUY meant wat he said - he didn't know how or what he actually had to do to make her more assured... no two ways about it.
There were many more other instances, many more things. I apologise if im still unable to help u to understand the above two small examples and paint a clearer picture.
How we interpret such things defines what our own characters are.
GIRL is very emotional so she uses her feelings to interpret GUY's responses and therefore got very hurt.
GUY was making a fully sound statement, logically they are correct.
Initially, before speaking to GUY, I also believed those were hurtful insensitive words... and this was because, like GIRL, I too used my heart and not my mind to make out their meanings.
But it became very different altogether afterwards, I find GUY very direct in the way he had been communicating with GIRL. And, consequently, I helped her to understand him better as well.
I was glad n hopeful that their r/ship was going to mend again, and that greater communication and understanding between them would prevail, thus paving way for a much better r/ship in time to come.
Yet, things had an untimely way of taking place. Just the next day, when things were beginning to bode well. GIRL was told that GUY had been "doing things behind her back". She also found out that I knew it all the while. When she called me up abt it, I did not know what to say really - the cat just caught my tongue. GUY2 too was shocked. But later on I tried to explain all of these that I've said to her, and she was able to accept it.
I also said that among those reasons, I had been COWARDLY and AFRAID to tell. On behalf of GUY2 and myself, I apologised to her for all the wrong aspects of our choice.
As well, in a moment of fluster to explain my actions, I had unintentionally spoken too harshly to one of the persons accompanying GIRL at that time of this breakdown. I had never believed in scolding a friend, only that I would be serious in making a point. I became too serious. Today we've mended up that misunderstanding, but Im sorry all the same.
5.
Many a times, there are things that can be really so difficult to decide that we end up sitting on the fence not knowing which side to go to. Its an exact 50-50. In a situation like this, I would be cheating my friend and helping another to "cheat" (notice the quotations!) my friend if I were to completely with-hold this information. If I were to reveal it, I had to bear the above consequences in mind, whether they affect myself or my friend's r/ship.
So confusing, but no matter what, I still had to make a choice.. not only did I chose not to tell, but I also said to others who knew that they shouldn't reveal. That was my choice.
6.
In the end it was somebody else who revealed this, for better or for worse.
13 JUNE FRI
WHAT IF..... contrary to the "evidence" we have gathered, GUY may still be true after all? That no matter how much we ourselves do not condone such "cheating" actions, there might be an acceptable reason behind GUY's doing? A reason however remote and impossible that we do not know of? A lot of things we simply see on the surface and soon after a judgement is passed. What if u happen to find out much more and discovered that ur judgement had somehow been unfair? Would u urself be able to retract that skewed judgement of urs and change? Ppl make mistakes, it is natural.
This here had been one of my remote thoughts that I had not taken the effort to look into, but so far, reality has taken a turn. Is it a fact? Or is it some more lies? We dont know...
Some ppl would have simply left and resumed their lives without pursuing such problems.
Some ppl would stay on to find out the full truth.
There is no right or wrong, except that those who stay on have great endurance and patience.
GUY had spoken to a friend, GIRL4, and GIRL has found out further from this friend that GUY is actually after all unable to know what he really wanted. Like GIRL described, "He is like a lost misguided sheep."
Those actions of cheating had been most wrong, but right n wrong are not absolute.
GIRL4 said that GUY told her he hadn't the intention to cheat behind GIRL's back.
GIRL has decided that GUY still deserves a chance and that she is willing to help him find his direction, whether or not there is a future for them. If it doesnt work out between them, GIRL would be glad to have helped him out as a friend.
Had we not knew of what GUY had spoken to GIRL4, things would have been so different. So many many of us, including myself, have fell victim to superficial finger-pointing. There is something deeper that we now see... and I believe and support GIRL's decisions - GUY still deserves another chance.
Furthermore, chance is not given only one time, two time or a few times... chance ought to be given as long we feel a person is still deserving of it. Of course, we have to put consideration into the past misgivings of that person, but we must also remember not to neglect any future possibilities and chance that that person might become better.
In the end, by choosing not to tell, I may have made a bad choice.
But for the person who revealed the truth, it had been valuable gift for GIRL's birthday.
Even if u THINK u may know everything, in the end, it's only what u THINK. U may not really know them all. Dont be so quick to judge.
After this, I havent passed my judgement yet nor do i think i want to.
Anyway, judging somebody, if u want to that is, need not be a one-time decision, but a timelong process in itself.
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
HE HAAA HEE HAAAA HEEE HAAA HEEE HAAA
i've finally learnt how to put up my quiz results in my blog, thankx to lord jojie
yaaaayyy v(^-^)v
i've finally learnt how to put up my quiz results in my blog, thankx to lord jojie
yaaaayyy v(^-^)v
Which Soul Reaver Character are you?
Congratulations, you are Kain! Once a nobleman, you got done in by a group of assassins and were then resurrected as a vampire. And were you pissed. You were set out to kill the Pillar guardians in order to restore the balance, but in the end found out that you were actually one of the guardians, too, and thus had to die. Being the rascal you are, though, you rather condemned the world than sacrificed yourself. You then appointed yourself as the autocrat of Nosgoth and raised a couple of Sarafan from the dead to lick your boots. But you're not as evil as it appears, right? You're just misunderstood. It's not your fault that the coin just won't land on its edge. You're not exactly a pretty-boy, but with a soft voice like molten chocolate and charisma that would make Sean Connery blush you're definitely every girl's dream bad-boy.
Phewwss!!! 36.6 C. I feels wonderful now! So strange, fever go so fast. Anyway, no more fever, time to act cute.
don't feel too good. just took temperature 38.2 C. fuck dont play leh... gig on saturday...
for the rest of u kids, u have been warned. earrrghhh~~~
for the rest of u kids, u have been warned. earrrghhh~~~
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
No shit, recently my head is swarmed with several social issues. This one is gonna be more sensitive, especially to you ladies. Just last week my father was channel surfing and we came across Channel News Asia airing a discussion programme over the issue of a girl's virginity. The programme was headed by a host and various usual people from our society such as students and professionals were invited to share their views. The question I can't remember exactly but it went somewhat like, "Virginity: Is it a thing of the past?" It was very predictable what views were being brought up. Some said virginity is very important, and one guy who said he wouldn't accept a girl if he found out she isn't one. Another guy said that he won't judge a girl by merits of her virgin status but by whether she has a good heart. A middle aged working lady spoke the typical auntie way and stressed the importance of virginity - she shook her head disapprovingly in the usual "Young people these days.. haiii...." manner. Of course there were other views being brought forward as well but all of them were highly predictable and none was new or surprising. In any case, those are opinions that I shall respect. I see no need to bother if they are right or wrong. But I find it a big concern that what they have said can easily influence viewers' thinking once more. There are other options for thought, but stuffs we get from TV are often biased.
That's very sad.
Why?
Because, here, once again, I feel that people's eyes are being shrouded again by the veil of conformist thinking that they fail to consider the other side of things.
Here's one point of view that I'll suggest. Whether you choose to accept it is up to you.
I'm just stating it here to present a wider range of ideas for my dearest readers to consider.
So here goes, but don't bomb me if you do not agree. Respect it as just another opinion, although not a popular one.
Have you ever wondered why all the talk has been centred on the girl and not the guy? Have you wondered why all the blame always fall on the girl and NOT the guy when they lose "that thing"? It's simply because of the system we're born under. We have been raised to celebrate certain ideals, certain beliefs and to uphopld certain morals. I can't readily determine if what society believes in is right or wrong. Because, if we're born under a society which, for example, allowed and condoned polygamy/promiscuity/having multiple lovers, would we then question these issues? No, we won't because we're raised to believe in them and to adopt them as natural.
Anyway, I repeat again, I'm not trying to point out who's right or who's wrong. I'm just bringing up another side of this virginity issue that we seldom consider MAINLY because we have been raised under this particular system and way of thinking.
Our society is patriarchal, that is, controlled by men, yes men and not women. That is without question. Therefore, many would fail to question, "Hey what about the guys?! Why isn't it such a big issue when guys lose their virginity?" Personally I felt that when that stupid dudhead (it is my own opinion that he is a stupid dudhead) made the statement that girls ought to be virgins, the thought raced in my mind, "When you expect something of people, make sure you are of that standard too. Hence, I would further bring this issue to the realms of greater fairness and equality ("greater" because equality of the sexes can never be ABSOLUTELY attained).
Why did the programme not talk about guys and their virginity? If you can see the big picture of this question, you could more or less grasp the idea/fact that the female sex is still suppressed and exploited. In a more equal and meritocratic Singapore, where women already have NEAR chances with men in terms of education and profession, there are still lots of sex issues that we can weed out. So here, my simple statement is, PLEASE BE FAIR. Yeap, that's all.
If you're a guy who is still a virgin, and if you expect your partner to be one, I still have something to say about this...
In my mind I ask, "Are you trying to say that you are measuring a girl's merits merely by virtue of her sexual organs? If so, what if she has a true and good heart? Won't you be guilty of condemning an innocent soul for her own past? I mean, what right do you have to interfere and make judgements about one's past? Would you rather not consider what good the both of you can make out of the future rather than bark and whelp at somebody's historical BEHIND? Petty.
(Once again, I must stress, this is MY OPINION, if you disagree, at least respect it.)
Of course there are other cases as well: For the guys, what if the girl was a prostitute before? What if the girl had done it with 50 boyfriends before? And for the ladies, what if your boyfriend had slept with 80 girls before you? What if he was a gay before?
Of course, these are things that we have to weigh out for ourselves. There is no objective truth here, no absolute right or wrong.
Ultimately, how we treat and see things is just a matter of our own opinion. And what I have brought up here is only to WIDEN UP your views. May all of you see things from a WIDER range and also be fair to question your ownself before deciding about the other person.
Alright, now back to the programme...
The only message I could detect from this talkshow is that it is still attempting to reinforce and reaffirm the already popular view that girls ought to be chaste. No doubt at the end of the show, the host might have said something impartial so as to allow us to decide for ourselves how important virginity is, but have we, as viewers, really been provided with a well-rounded set of choices? Or are the choices themselves already skewered with some subtle biasedness? You decide.
Here is my view on that middle-aged working woman who showed her disapproving auntie-style attitude towards unmarried NON-virgin girls ("Young people these days.. haiii...."). Dear auntie, have you the broad sense to consider the way you spoke? You didn't say anything about guys losing it. You were only lamenting at the girls. Why do you think this way? Hmmm... Is it because your husband was one who had slept with other people before marrying you and that you were "pure" when you married him, so you do not pose this concern for guys like the way you did not pose any such concern for your husband but silently accepted it? What a victim of societal conformity you are.
No, societal conformity isn't bad, that's not what I mean... What I mean is that we should ourselves have the broad-minded sense to look beyond what we simply see everyday.
One related issue I'd burn to bring up here is this... I used to read the "Teenage" and "Teens" magazines when I was younger. In some r/ship sections, I have never failed to detect the message it is sending to impressionable young readers. On the issue of virginity, the stories are always standard: Girl lost it before. Girl admits to new nice boyfriend. Boyfriend says standard thing in the most sickeningly irritating and OVERLY self-righteous manner, "I don't think I can accept you knowing that your past was like this. I'm sorry but we cannot be together."
Bloody hell, it had never been an issue with the guys, guys losing their virginity had never been a big deal in those magazines. It's the girls girls girls. Whoa... How fair do you think the magazine editors are?
Make no mistake, if you think, after reading this, I'm a feminist, fuck off. You have no idea what I've been trying to say here - if there is a term for it, I'm an "Equalist". The message is simple... BE FAIR.
Yet again, please do not mistake, BEING FAIR does not mean expecting your own standard in the other person. BEING FAIR includes having tolerance and respect for the other person as well. For example, you are virgin but your partner isn't. You would also be FAIR in accepting and respecting that person's past.
So... how FAIR can we really be? You may see things a little wider now after reading the above... so now you decide.
That's very sad.
Why?
Because, here, once again, I feel that people's eyes are being shrouded again by the veil of conformist thinking that they fail to consider the other side of things.
Here's one point of view that I'll suggest. Whether you choose to accept it is up to you.
I'm just stating it here to present a wider range of ideas for my dearest readers to consider.
So here goes, but don't bomb me if you do not agree. Respect it as just another opinion, although not a popular one.
Have you ever wondered why all the talk has been centred on the girl and not the guy? Have you wondered why all the blame always fall on the girl and NOT the guy when they lose "that thing"? It's simply because of the system we're born under. We have been raised to celebrate certain ideals, certain beliefs and to uphopld certain morals. I can't readily determine if what society believes in is right or wrong. Because, if we're born under a society which, for example, allowed and condoned polygamy/promiscuity/having multiple lovers, would we then question these issues? No, we won't because we're raised to believe in them and to adopt them as natural.
Anyway, I repeat again, I'm not trying to point out who's right or who's wrong. I'm just bringing up another side of this virginity issue that we seldom consider MAINLY because we have been raised under this particular system and way of thinking.
Our society is patriarchal, that is, controlled by men, yes men and not women. That is without question. Therefore, many would fail to question, "Hey what about the guys?! Why isn't it such a big issue when guys lose their virginity?" Personally I felt that when that stupid dudhead (it is my own opinion that he is a stupid dudhead) made the statement that girls ought to be virgins, the thought raced in my mind, "When you expect something of people, make sure you are of that standard too. Hence, I would further bring this issue to the realms of greater fairness and equality ("greater" because equality of the sexes can never be ABSOLUTELY attained).
Why did the programme not talk about guys and their virginity? If you can see the big picture of this question, you could more or less grasp the idea/fact that the female sex is still suppressed and exploited. In a more equal and meritocratic Singapore, where women already have NEAR chances with men in terms of education and profession, there are still lots of sex issues that we can weed out. So here, my simple statement is, PLEASE BE FAIR. Yeap, that's all.
If you're a guy who is still a virgin, and if you expect your partner to be one, I still have something to say about this...
In my mind I ask, "Are you trying to say that you are measuring a girl's merits merely by virtue of her sexual organs? If so, what if she has a true and good heart? Won't you be guilty of condemning an innocent soul for her own past? I mean, what right do you have to interfere and make judgements about one's past? Would you rather not consider what good the both of you can make out of the future rather than bark and whelp at somebody's historical BEHIND? Petty.
(Once again, I must stress, this is MY OPINION, if you disagree, at least respect it.)
Of course there are other cases as well: For the guys, what if the girl was a prostitute before? What if the girl had done it with 50 boyfriends before? And for the ladies, what if your boyfriend had slept with 80 girls before you? What if he was a gay before?
Of course, these are things that we have to weigh out for ourselves. There is no objective truth here, no absolute right or wrong.
Ultimately, how we treat and see things is just a matter of our own opinion. And what I have brought up here is only to WIDEN UP your views. May all of you see things from a WIDER range and also be fair to question your ownself before deciding about the other person.
Alright, now back to the programme...
The only message I could detect from this talkshow is that it is still attempting to reinforce and reaffirm the already popular view that girls ought to be chaste. No doubt at the end of the show, the host might have said something impartial so as to allow us to decide for ourselves how important virginity is, but have we, as viewers, really been provided with a well-rounded set of choices? Or are the choices themselves already skewered with some subtle biasedness? You decide.
Here is my view on that middle-aged working woman who showed her disapproving auntie-style attitude towards unmarried NON-virgin girls ("Young people these days.. haiii...."). Dear auntie, have you the broad sense to consider the way you spoke? You didn't say anything about guys losing it. You were only lamenting at the girls. Why do you think this way? Hmmm... Is it because your husband was one who had slept with other people before marrying you and that you were "pure" when you married him, so you do not pose this concern for guys like the way you did not pose any such concern for your husband but silently accepted it? What a victim of societal conformity you are.
No, societal conformity isn't bad, that's not what I mean... What I mean is that we should ourselves have the broad-minded sense to look beyond what we simply see everyday.
One related issue I'd burn to bring up here is this... I used to read the "Teenage" and "Teens" magazines when I was younger. In some r/ship sections, I have never failed to detect the message it is sending to impressionable young readers. On the issue of virginity, the stories are always standard: Girl lost it before. Girl admits to new nice boyfriend. Boyfriend says standard thing in the most sickeningly irritating and OVERLY self-righteous manner, "I don't think I can accept you knowing that your past was like this. I'm sorry but we cannot be together."
Bloody hell, it had never been an issue with the guys, guys losing their virginity had never been a big deal in those magazines. It's the girls girls girls. Whoa... How fair do you think the magazine editors are?
Make no mistake, if you think, after reading this, I'm a feminist, fuck off. You have no idea what I've been trying to say here - if there is a term for it, I'm an "Equalist". The message is simple... BE FAIR.
Yet again, please do not mistake, BEING FAIR does not mean expecting your own standard in the other person. BEING FAIR includes having tolerance and respect for the other person as well. For example, you are virgin but your partner isn't. You would also be FAIR in accepting and respecting that person's past.
So... how FAIR can we really be? You may see things a little wider now after reading the above... so now you decide.
hoho here's an interesting issue to ponder over. I saw a programme on TV today - those kind of goodie goodie real life go-thru-hard-times-but-come-out-successful kind of story. I'm not against gays nor am I for them, just neutral. Firstly, it is understandable that our country does not approve of such a "lifestyle". So anyway, this programme tells the true story of how a gay turned straight and got married with a family. Combined with all those overly irritating goodie-two-shoe music to bring... no, to WRING out our every last drop of sympathy and emotion for that character... well...... on the surface, the average viewer will just go "Awwwww.... so pitiful". BUT, have u given a thought that the information on the TV is somehow manipulated to influence u to a certain way of thinking that "those in power" want u to think? Yes, we know our country does not approve of such lifestyle, but this manner of enforcing a view can be further led to a bigger picture - that is, all such local programmes that we watch on TV are meant to convert us towards a more conformed lifestyle. Conformism is highly celebrated while one's personal choice/individuality is often downplayed or condemned. It's not just the gays, people... there ae other things too... our local music scene for instance, yesss... local bands are largely thought to be non-conformist, that is unless u play conformist songs and more than usually end up looking like idiotic irritating wussies.
So... when u are made to think that that gay is very pitiful for simply being a gay, u ought to realise ur being INJECTED with the view that being gay is wrong. Same thing goes to other kinds of lifestyles and cultures. Same goes to cosplaying, local band gigs, mat rockers and so on... Our society is being structured not to accept these kinds of subversive activities. And if society does accept it, its mainly because there is support from "the people with power". You may personally have a great dislike for gays, but this programme itself has caused me to think beyond just this gay issue. The way that such an uncommon occurence (gay turning straight) was being WEEDED out and made a big show out of just to illustrate that "see, if he can do it... why can't the rest of you?" is just the same as telling viewers.... "Conform. Conform. Conform. Conform..." Whoaaaaa.... Pleaseeeee.... Show a little respect for our individual selves for goodness' sake.
Anyway, my point is, I find it very disrespectful and discriminating that such programmes have to resort to celebrating those few rare happy "success" cases in an attempt manipulate the thoughts, beliefs and ideas of the unwary viewer.
Hey, why not show the success story of the gay who finally left Singapore and settled down elsewhere with another guy where they both live happily ever after? I know! Cos u want all your men to marry a woman, start a family, raise kids, earn a living, and ultimately drive your bloody capitalist economy! Yeah! And that comes at the expense of our individual choice/cultures/activities. Wow...! So what are u waiting for? Come on now and join us! Be "In" to show that your "Cool"!
Fuck off. _|_
Never accept what you are fed directly, always learn to question and to examine the other side before forming your judgement and beliefs. Not everything you hear is always right.
So... when u are made to think that that gay is very pitiful for simply being a gay, u ought to realise ur being INJECTED with the view that being gay is wrong. Same thing goes to other kinds of lifestyles and cultures. Same goes to cosplaying, local band gigs, mat rockers and so on... Our society is being structured not to accept these kinds of subversive activities. And if society does accept it, its mainly because there is support from "the people with power". You may personally have a great dislike for gays, but this programme itself has caused me to think beyond just this gay issue. The way that such an uncommon occurence (gay turning straight) was being WEEDED out and made a big show out of just to illustrate that "see, if he can do it... why can't the rest of you?" is just the same as telling viewers.... "Conform. Conform. Conform. Conform..." Whoaaaaa.... Pleaseeeee.... Show a little respect for our individual selves for goodness' sake.
Anyway, my point is, I find it very disrespectful and discriminating that such programmes have to resort to celebrating those few rare happy "success" cases in an attempt manipulate the thoughts, beliefs and ideas of the unwary viewer.
Hey, why not show the success story of the gay who finally left Singapore and settled down elsewhere with another guy where they both live happily ever after? I know! Cos u want all your men to marry a woman, start a family, raise kids, earn a living, and ultimately drive your bloody capitalist economy! Yeah! And that comes at the expense of our individual choice/cultures/activities. Wow...! So what are u waiting for? Come on now and join us! Be "In" to show that your "Cool"!
Fuck off. _|_
Never accept what you are fed directly, always learn to question and to examine the other side before forming your judgement and beliefs. Not everything you hear is always right.
Friday, June 06, 2003
Ker Jyn drove over to pick me up to his house where we spent the afternoon playing Command & Conquer: Generals. Dammit, if only my com was that fast, his is abt 2.4 GHz, mine's a pathetic 500MHz Celeron that's all. Anyway, I borrowed his Command & Conquer: Red Alert 2 home. I originally had this Red Alert 2 game, but the disc is spoilt. Since I can't play Generals, I'll simply settle with this old timer then, just to relive that old experience. Hohoho. His house has been beautifully renovated - so different and a definite improvement over the past. His room was designed to have the office setting. Big room too. *Ahhhh the envy that I'm oozing*
After that, by about 5:30pm, I realised I was late in meeting the kids (that would be Ed, Pinku, Jojie, Ah Boon, Auntie Bala, Lilian, Ivan & Akane) meeting up at Bedok MRT to celebrate Edmund's few remaining days of freedom before his enlistment over dinner at 85 (dunno the full name). And King Ker Jyn was still calmly trying to take down the 3 Brutal Level enemies. By the time he was done doing that, it was about 6 or so. So, after a little bit more delay waiting for his mom to return with the car, he drove me to Paya Lebar MRT which was only 3 stops from Bedok, while on his way elsewhere to pick something up fro somebody. So the delay wasn't that bad. (Ahhhh the utter convenience that a car provides......)
So okay, so we made it to 85 later on. Jiaxiong and Xiuxiu joined us. So we crapped a lot, as usual. The most notable thing about this event was some irritating uncle who wouldn't know when to stop irritating us and that he was wrong. He kept asking us to order our drinks and told us not to order drinks from another side. Rubbish! Some of us odered through him. And a few of us didn't. I don't see any need to order from him, or if I did, it didn't have to be right then for that matter. Moreover, Ed, Sakuya and I seemed more interested in the sugar cane drinks from the stall in the "forbidden area". Anyway, his face was as black as can be. I think I felt good seeing his BU GAN YAN face, being unable to do anything to get some of us to order from him. Later on, he came back to us a few more times to ask us for any more orders. He also tried to take the table I was at away, while the others were gone for a while ordering more food, saying that since there's noone at the table anymore, he should take it away for other people to sit. He was unsuccessful. Towards the end, Auntie Bala was gonna finish her tang yuan while everybody else was done. He came again and told us to clear the table since we're done eating. At that point, Ed did his famous style of rebutts, saying it ain't 1030 yet. We can sit here as we please. The man kept protesting. Ed also pointed to other already empty tables around us, saying there are empty seats, what's the big deal. The man kept protesting. Jiaxiong butted in and said, "No happy call police lar." After that, Jiaxiong siad sarcastically, "Ahhh let's go. Let's go. Mata lai liao." We all stood up and left.
[02:05] Daita> tabe
[02:05] Daita> dun u get it
[02:05] Daita> he was just trying to get back at us
[02:05] Daita> u din see
........
[02:11] Daita> i just now told him wat
........
[02:11] Daita> now is u buey kay gian simi
........
[02:12] Daita> lol i like it when he said we sit so long then ppl come no place to sit
........
[02:12] Daita> i showed him the tables and asked him.....if these are not tables then wat are they
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[02:13] Daita> even if he pull away i will pull the table back
irrationally upset = bu gan yan = lan lan stand there and get shit = stupid
After that, by about 5:30pm, I realised I was late in meeting the kids (that would be Ed, Pinku, Jojie, Ah Boon, Auntie Bala, Lilian, Ivan & Akane) meeting up at Bedok MRT to celebrate Edmund's few remaining days of freedom before his enlistment over dinner at 85 (dunno the full name). And King Ker Jyn was still calmly trying to take down the 3 Brutal Level enemies. By the time he was done doing that, it was about 6 or so. So, after a little bit more delay waiting for his mom to return with the car, he drove me to Paya Lebar MRT which was only 3 stops from Bedok, while on his way elsewhere to pick something up fro somebody. So the delay wasn't that bad. (Ahhhh the utter convenience that a car provides......)
So okay, so we made it to 85 later on. Jiaxiong and Xiuxiu joined us. So we crapped a lot, as usual. The most notable thing about this event was some irritating uncle who wouldn't know when to stop irritating us and that he was wrong. He kept asking us to order our drinks and told us not to order drinks from another side. Rubbish! Some of us odered through him. And a few of us didn't. I don't see any need to order from him, or if I did, it didn't have to be right then for that matter. Moreover, Ed, Sakuya and I seemed more interested in the sugar cane drinks from the stall in the "forbidden area". Anyway, his face was as black as can be. I think I felt good seeing his BU GAN YAN face, being unable to do anything to get some of us to order from him. Later on, he came back to us a few more times to ask us for any more orders. He also tried to take the table I was at away, while the others were gone for a while ordering more food, saying that since there's noone at the table anymore, he should take it away for other people to sit. He was unsuccessful. Towards the end, Auntie Bala was gonna finish her tang yuan while everybody else was done. He came again and told us to clear the table since we're done eating. At that point, Ed did his famous style of rebutts, saying it ain't 1030 yet. We can sit here as we please. The man kept protesting. Ed also pointed to other already empty tables around us, saying there are empty seats, what's the big deal. The man kept protesting. Jiaxiong butted in and said, "No happy call police lar." After that, Jiaxiong siad sarcastically, "Ahhh let's go. Let's go. Mata lai liao." We all stood up and left.
[02:05] Daita> tabe
[02:05] Daita> dun u get it
[02:05] Daita> he was just trying to get back at us
[02:05] Daita> u din see
........
[02:11] Daita> i just now told him wat
........
[02:11] Daita> now is u buey kay gian simi
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[02:12] Daita> lol i like it when he said we sit so long then ppl come no place to sit
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[02:12] Daita> i showed him the tables and asked him.....if these are not tables then wat are they
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[02:13] Daita> even if he pull away i will pull the table back
irrationally upset = bu gan yan = lan lan stand there and get shit = stupid
Thursday, June 05, 2003
AHHH!!! Speak of the devil, Raziel has arrived! Goodness the picture is so big! And so handsome... *swoons*
I replaced the walking druid to the left with an image of Raziel last night - the handsome Raziel from "Legacy Of Kain: Soul Reaver" in his human-vampire form... but the change is still not effected. Why does it take so long to change blog pictures! hhrrmmppxxz!
And, wahahaaaaaa, a sudden thought just ocurred... Raziel is to tabe what Lestat is to Emer... hwahwaahwahwahwahwahaaa
And, wahahaaaaaa, a sudden thought just ocurred... Raziel is to tabe what Lestat is to Emer... hwahwaahwahwahwahwahaaa
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
I went out earlier in the evening today to support Ivan's band Kurotenshi and Defuse in their Streetfest gig at Cineleisure. There were quite a number of kids around as well. Ivan and his yellow wig... ahahahaa... cute. Leonard's vocals are solid... hmmmm... nothing much funny to say here... so i ll stop.
Anyway HOHOHOHO I've finally got a GUESTBOOK! BWAHAHAHAHAAA! Don't just sign it! Crap along with me man! HAAAA!! (^-^)v
ALso, thanks man Pinku for the little help wor. Hohoho...
Anyway HOHOHOHO I've finally got a GUESTBOOK! BWAHAHAHAHAAA! Don't just sign it! Crap along with me man! HAAAA!! (^-^)v
ALso, thanks man Pinku for the little help wor. Hohoho...
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
i want to have a guestbook! how to make a guestbook?
New law:
Any person, kid, human, animal or otherwise who visits this site is required to leave your identity and contact for the purpose of high security surveillance and tracing. Those who do not comply will be subjected to harsh punishments as stated under the newly amended Divine Laws of the Tele Monarchy, the most severe of which is one month exile to the land of the REAL Teletubbies (yueaccckkss!) and Barney The Gay Dinosaur (noooooooooooooo!!! not the gay dinosaur!!!!!). But, due to the unfortunate absence of a guestbook, this law shall take effect only when somebody tells me how to make a guestbook. (Somebody help me lar... so ke lian u see ---> >.<~)
New law:
Any person, kid, human, animal or otherwise who visits this site is required to leave your identity and contact for the purpose of high security surveillance and tracing. Those who do not comply will be subjected to harsh punishments as stated under the newly amended Divine Laws of the Tele Monarchy, the most severe of which is one month exile to the land of the REAL Teletubbies (yueaccckkss!) and Barney The Gay Dinosaur (noooooooooooooo!!! not the gay dinosaur!!!!!). But, due to the unfortunate absence of a guestbook, this law shall take effect only when somebody tells me how to make a guestbook. (Somebody help me lar... so ke lian u see ---> >.<~)
Monday, June 02, 2003
Haaaaaaaaaaa, children! We have an opinion here:
[03:29] Daita> i hate philosophers to a certain extent
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[03:29] Daita> trying to simplify things and yet complicating it on the way to simplicity
[03:29] Daita> i hate philosophers to a certain extent
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[03:29] Daita> trying to simplify things and yet complicating it on the way to simplicity
The great philosopher tabe on: Is the glass half empty or half full?
So... class, today we shall discuss about a glass half filled with water. Is it half full? Half empty? You do not know? Or both half full and half empty?
Actually, all the answers are correct.But, you might ponder, what then is the real truth? The universally accepted fact? Isn't there any one tangible choice among them that you can safely hold on to? In this instance, you can argue for a "yes" and a "no". Why? Because there exists something called the "opinion". Because of this, there are many faces to a coin, many shades to a colour, many shapes to a fruit and many clones to a tabe. Then again, one may argue, the glass is not only half filled with water but also half filled with air. Thus, this brings us forward to another greater range of possibilities that so many may fail to consider - the glass is half filled with air, half empty of air, both half full and half empty of air.
Of course, yet again, the myopic will merely stop till here. And the visionaries and the broad see that the glass may be any number of the combinations from the abovementioned and much more. Who can contest against that the halves themselves stated here may not be absolute but are skewered by the presence of minute impurities and foreign particles both in the air and in the water? What then is the water? What then is the air? And what is a half? Do the presence of such particles actually skewer the absolute definition of what we have so conveniently termed as "half"? What is your answer? My answer is "yes" and "no" and any other answer however and whenever I like or choose it.
Good, now children, please open up your tele workbooks and complete Exercises 6 to 20, that is, pages 45 to 209. Please include a minimal 3000 word detailed essay about your opinion of what is an "opinion" under Exercise 18 and have this simple assignment handed up first thing tomorrow morning. Class dismissed.
So... class, today we shall discuss about a glass half filled with water. Is it half full? Half empty? You do not know? Or both half full and half empty?
Actually, all the answers are correct.But, you might ponder, what then is the real truth? The universally accepted fact? Isn't there any one tangible choice among them that you can safely hold on to? In this instance, you can argue for a "yes" and a "no". Why? Because there exists something called the "opinion". Because of this, there are many faces to a coin, many shades to a colour, many shapes to a fruit and many clones to a tabe. Then again, one may argue, the glass is not only half filled with water but also half filled with air. Thus, this brings us forward to another greater range of possibilities that so many may fail to consider - the glass is half filled with air, half empty of air, both half full and half empty of air.
Of course, yet again, the myopic will merely stop till here. And the visionaries and the broad see that the glass may be any number of the combinations from the abovementioned and much more. Who can contest against that the halves themselves stated here may not be absolute but are skewered by the presence of minute impurities and foreign particles both in the air and in the water? What then is the water? What then is the air? And what is a half? Do the presence of such particles actually skewer the absolute definition of what we have so conveniently termed as "half"? What is your answer? My answer is "yes" and "no" and any other answer however and whenever I like or choose it.
Good, now children, please open up your tele workbooks and complete Exercises 6 to 20, that is, pages 45 to 209. Please include a minimal 3000 word detailed essay about your opinion of what is an "opinion" under Exercise 18 and have this simple assignment handed up first thing tomorrow morning. Class dismissed.
Sunday, June 01, 2003
You are patient and kind
I regret your troubles
But thank you my friend
For a wonderful time
I regret your troubles
But thank you my friend
For a wonderful time
